Love Songs from No One

Hey love song to no one
Why won’t you take me away
From these faces, from these places?
Hey love song from no one
Don’t you know my world is now
Cornered here, filled with fear?

I knew a boy
Who was a schizophrenic.
And not in a beautiful way.
Not in the way they show them
In the movies.
It was the most painful thing to witness;
Somebody crumble between distorting realities.

He lived in my neighbourhood
And my mother told me to keep clear.
He would sit on the front lawn,
Laughing along to a joke
Nobody else could hear.
He would draw obscure things with chalk
On the road
Before his father could bring him in.
Sometimes I’d hear his faint hollers
In the night;
A fight with the demon
That was too cruel
To reveal itself to others.
The demon that perched on his shoulders
And held dominion over this boy.

It was 3 one morning
When police and ambulance lights
Glittered the neighbourhood sky
And people opened their doors to the noise
And pushed their children back to bed.
I had a heavy pulling in my chest;
Someone telling me, ‘He could have been OK. He should have lived like the rest of us.’

A week later a rumour went around
About how he left a note by his drawer
That read,

'I hope the place I end up
Is more real than the place I lived.
I hope I’m not insane,
Or broken.
I hope people believe what I say.
People can pray to Gods
And hope spirits heal them.
I guess I might have done the same things.
What made me any different?
I guess there was no epistemic distance.
They were always with me, even when I didn’t want them to be.
Judging from the unanswered prayers of others,
I guess God can’t afford to stick around.
The world will be insane.
The world will fall apart
Like I did
A million times over.

—Distorting Realities // W.J (via cascadingletters)

mingdliu:

He was falling apart like leaves falling off trees  but she said  even trees find life every year;  for the cycle repeats itself,  over and over again.
Ming D. Liu

mingdliu:

He was falling apart
like leaves falling off trees
but she said
even trees find life every year;
for the cycle repeats itself,
over and over again.

Ming D. Liu

I’m trying hard
to not be starving.
I’m trying to not
write poetry on my skin.

I’m trying to not
jump off the edge.
I’m trying hard
to cross the bridge.

I’m trying hard
to drink the sunlight,
I’m trying hard
to be alive.

I’m trying my best
to keep on trying.
I’m trying, I’m trying.

Sade Andria Zabala (surfandwrite) | I’m Trying My Best (via surfandwrite)

(via surfandwrite)

I woke up in the morning and I didn’t want anything, didn’t do anything,
couldn’t do it anyway,
just lay there listening to the blood rush through me and it never made
any sense, anything.
And I can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t sit still or fix things and I wake up and I
wake up and you’re still dead.

—Richard Siken, from Straw House, Straw Dog (via violentwavesofemotion)

Need a boost? Some natural antidepressants:

chooserecovery:

  • Turn on the lights. Having everything lit up can help boost your mood, and lamps are often used to treat SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder)
  • Citruses have high levels of vitamin C, which increase dopamine levels in your brain. Dopamine is one of your “feel-good” chemicals  Also, they have high levels of vitamin D, which has been shown to be lacking in people with depression.
  • Spinach has lots of folic acid, which helps produce serotonin in your brain, another “happy” endorphin.
  • Red peppers contain lots of vitamin C.
  • Walnuts, salmon, and mackerel all have lots of Omega-3. A lack of Omega-3 has been tied to depression.
  • Water. Yep, just water. 60-70% of your body is water, and when you’re dehydrated, it takes a big toll on your health- including your mental health
  • Dark chocolate can raise serotonin levels and has lots of natural stimulants.
  • Whole wheat foods have complex carbohydrates, which can increase serotonin levels.
  • Popcorn also has these carbohydrates that help your serotonin,
  • Most importantly, sleep. You know how if you don’t get enough sleep, you feel grumpy? Well, if you’re seriously lacking in snooze time, you feel depressed. Your body needs that time to recharge! Try to get at least 8 hours a night, or more if you feel groggy when you wake up.